Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Yes, this blog is officially DEAD. But I don't care. >: I'm still gonna post. I'm still gonna crap. AND I'M STILL GONNA REVIVE IT! Hopefully. o.o
This is gonna be own my personal diary. Yep, this will be a site in which my stories are heard, my cries and joys are expressed and maybe, where all my random ideas all come into.
OK whatever. I shall just begin with how the first two days of the week have been. There are only three words to describe it.
SUCK. SUCK. SUCK.
I really regret slacking during the November/December holidays cause my results are freaking me out. SERIOUSLY. I can't help but just hate myself inside, "WHY TIARA WHY? WHY ARE YOU SUCH AN IDIOT?" Maybe I wasn't that pessimistic, but it still dawned on me that I gotta start gearing up before it's too late.
I don't wanna flunk any tests this year (especially Chinese) and aiming to get A1 for all the science subjects is a definite MUST-MUST. However, there is a constant disturbance in my mind. I often question myself, "Will I be able to make it?". I really hope so.
When our teacher announced that I had to go for Engoish remedial, I was totally caught off guard. WTH?! ENGLISH REMEDIAL FOR ME?! I'm supposed to have Chinese instead of English HELLO!
Obviously, I kept it to myself the whole time until someody actually asked me,
"Hey Tiara why are you staying back?"
"Urm... Remedial?" *looks away*
"For chinese remedial?"
"Urm... No......"
"OMG TIARA YOU'RE IN ENGLISH REMEDIAL?! That's impossible!" *clutches face with shocked expression*
"UH..... It just sort of happened that my vocab killed me?"
*Stunned look*
And that was how the scenerio went when I surprise them with my oh-guess-what-I'm-in-english-remedial news.
EMBARRASSING MUCH???English used to be my second best subject, right after maths, and chinese was, of course, my worst. It was undoubtedly humiliating and disappointing but there were no other options left. -.-
Apart from studying really hard, and putting in my 100% effort, I gotta have my self-esteem back. I can't lose it. I need it. Without that self-driven determination, I don't think my results will get anywhere. I might have been overwhelmed by my sudden bad results, but I do know that God has His own purpose for me! HAHAHA!
The first step to improving, is TO CUT DOWN ON MY FB USAGE! YES! I shall only go on FB only once a week from now on! And the second step, is to PAY ATTENTION IS CLASS! FYI, my attention span in class is almost zero. I can't help annoying Hilary when I'm bored sometimes, especially during Chinese and Maths. Sorry Hil. :D
YES I'M GOING TO TRY TO DO MY BEST! FIGHTING! :D
Missus Crazy-Lovin'-Geek ended @ 6:02 AM